Sometimes life gets moving so fast and it almost feels impossible to slow yourself down. Inside your mind it feels like the hyper-speed switch is stuck in the "on" position. Everyday I seem to awake exhausted from the previous day and my morning begins by making a firm resolution that, "tonight I will get to bed at a decent hour." It is indeed wishful thinking, for as the day wares on the tasks and responsibilities mount my bedtime ends up pushed off later and later. I am finding however that in the most unforseen moments the Lord ministers lovingly and with perfect care to my soul.
I was bound and determined to get in bed tonight by 10pm, that hour came and went just short of three hours ago. But somehow the blanket of darkness outside my window and the absolute silence in the house and the world around me is comforting. The Lord always knows what I need more than I, I just wish I would learn to listen to him when he speaks with that still small voice. "Babsy, give me 15 minutes of your time tonight." "No Lord" I respond, "In the morning, Im much to tired now, in the morning I will be fresh." What the Lord knows is that if I do not give him the time now, the truth is I will not give him the time in the morning either because what I am wanting is my perfect religious way and not Him alone. I believe the Lord can make up for my lack of sleep. For what he is really saying is, "Babsy, I want to give you sweet sleep so that you can wake up refreshed tomorrow, but if you go to bed like you are, you will toss and turn from the anxiety inside of you that you have not yet released to me." I am so glad my Heavenly Father knows every part of me, even the way I sleep best and the best ways for me to unwind.
"Consider how the lilies grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, how much more will he clothe you, O you of little faith! And do not set your heart on what you will eat or drink; do not worry about it. For the pagan world runs after all such things, and your Father knows that you need them. But seek his kingdom, and these things will be given to you as well." Luke 12: 27-30 (NIV)
Goodnight My Luvs,
Babbles
